Nobody will ever understand why I am the way I am .. & I’ll never let anyone understand why .. I’ll never tell a single soul of the things that have happened in my past .. I’ll never tell anybody about my personal life .. I’ll never tell anybody why I’m always in the mood I’m in .. I’ll never let somebody know they got to me .. I’ll never let somebody have the satisfaction of knowing they got to me .. I’ll never fully open up to somebody .. I’ll never be happy with life like half of you are .. I’ll never find happiness within myself .. I’ll never be able to live a normal life like half of you .. I’ll never be able to do half the things you people do .. I’ll never be able to truly love myself like you people love yourselves .. I’ll never be able to experience life like a normal person .. I’ll never be able to find a purpose in this world & the worst thing is, I’ll never know what to do about any of this .. I will forever have these feelings & thoughts. & its just slowly eating me away. & I’m running out of things to do to ignore it .. & each day its driving me more & more out of my sanity .. making me question if any of this is even worth it. I don’t know what to do with myself anymore. Goodnight.
Dear Parent, thank you. Thank you for making me feel like this everyday. I don’t think I could be anymore of a miserable person. Sincerely, sad to say, your daughter.
Trying this tonight
(Source: val-dez)
